Tonight was a fantastic night as I sat in my bed since 7:00pm reading my book. It sparked quite an interest in me, but I am really very upset with the ending. To put it in other terms, I simply do not like when people die at the end of the story. Hamlet was a good example of a story that tunes you in just in time to rip your heart in half at the close...Darn books. Now I have to find another book that will ease my brain of the sorrow. That shouldn't be too hard. Also, this Reese's peanut butter cup might be just what I need to sweeten the mood. All in all, I learned a little more about the lives people live and how the world can be so cruel. Learning will be something that happens everyday, no matter what.
For the past month or so, it is possible that I have been one of the happiest people alive. Sure there were some obstacles that I had to overcome, but that wasn't anything God couldn't help me with. With His help, I have completed yet another race in my marathon of life. I am moving on to bigger and greater things, and I am more than willing to leave my past as my past as I look forward to my future.
Going back to when I said I was possibly one of the happiest people alive, I really think I might be! I've smiled every day since I've met this very special guy, and talking to him is my favorite part of every single day! There was a point in my life where I thought I would, in the words of George Michael, "never dance again." Guys were never really good to me. All this has changed. A guy that I never really thought about before a month ago turned out to be someone I think about every second. My smile has never been brighter, my laugh has never been healthier, my eyes have never shone with such sparkle, my heart has never felt so warm, and my stare has never been so intense...and yes, I have a pretty intense stare. It is only the beginning, but that's the joy in a fresh start. I have the chance to be who I want to be. I want to be the girl for him, because it really feels right this time. Like I said, it's only the prologue, I've still got the rest of my story to write...better yet, to let fall into place.
My best friends are some pretty awesome people. In a previous blog, they may have been talked down on, but they really do try. I love them to death, and I would do anything for them. Truthfully, I miss them and how close we used to be. Hopefully I can rekindle our friendship or at least make time in my busy schedule for them. It's been a minute.
I have a habit of forgetting to sleep at night. This is something I really don't have a problem with, but I know I should probably start sleeping when I'm supposed to. Being sleep deprived is something I deal with on the daily, but I'm a pretty happy person when I'm robbed of my sleep. People notice.
Despite my talk of failure to sleep, tonight will be a good night to start a new habit...at least until the school year is complete.
Looking beyond the shadow,
Emily Page.
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