Sing me the lullaby...the one that will lift my spirits unto eternal peace. My soul needs a break from feelings.
Country music only reminds me of what I am not capable. My love is never accepted for truth but for every single lie they have ever been told. Their misconception of conformity among women reserves a seat for me at the head table of lady liars. Emily is not, and will never be, capable of loving enough to deserve a hint of reciprocation.
An old man ventured to Subway while I was working the night shift. The name embroidered into his jacket read "Dave." His words to me brought a sense of sorrow as he explained the passing of his wife 39 days earlier. She was his gift from God according to his touching story, but why did he feel so compelled to reach out to me?
Knowing nothing but my name, "Dave" mentioned to me that I had dated the devil. Freshly out of a relationship, this struck me as interesting as I was curious as to why he made such a harsh accusation. The remainder of his time at the subshop required me to listen to his teachings, but to be frank, he was preaching to the choir.
Weird things always happen to me.
My drive is gone. What am I doing with my life?
Missouri is not a pleasant word, but it is a wonderful place. Ever since I was a child, I believed that my heart and soul belonged in St. Louis. Michigan is as unappealing as the day is long. There is no adventure here for me, and it's making me second guess the sanity of my family for choosing to live here. I'm bored with the scenery.
Phobias are real. If I had to mention one thing that I am deathly afraid of, it would be me gaining a huge amount of weight in a short period of time. Some say it's a problem, I say it's a yearning to be fit enough to outrun a bear.
Juicing is new to me, but in the short time I have been trying it out, I've felt better about myself. Yay, juice.
Pandora suggested a new station for me. My thoughts have never been so clear! This must be what excitement feels like! Too much exposure to this music might possess me to clean my bedroom and relieve it of things with no importance to me anymore...."ALL MY OBJECTS!"
It's a chill night.
Take time to breathe,
Emily Page.
